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Shedding Identities to Find Consciousness

Awakening to our true nature happens in a split second when the mind is still. Nothing needs to change in order to wake up to the truth of our Being. The full embodiment of this awakeness that we are, however, might last years or a lifetime. It is in the embodiment of the truth that real transformation takes place. Such embodiment is a continual process of shedding identities and ideas, however, not acquiring them. Embodiment might be said to be the real work of awakening, but it is a natural, spontaneous process, not the project of the egoic mind, for that thought is never what awakens.

~~ Dorothy Hunt, poet, author, spiritual seeker and leader, and founder of the San Francisco Center for Meditation and Psychotherapy

I came across Dorothy Hunt as I was perusing the agenda of the upcoming SAND16, Esalen workshops. One day I’ll attend a SAND event, but until then, I troll their agendas to find insightful and inspiring leaders in the world of Science and Non-Duality. What struck me in this quote from Dorothy Hunt’s website is this sentence: Such embodiment is a continual process of shedding identities and ideas, however, not acquiring them.

I do a whole lot of acquiring of ideas; I read, study, listen to audios, and follow leads into the latest thinking announced in journals and described in notes from conferences such as SAND, but now I have to ask: am I hindering my own awakening by holding onto my lifelong ideas and personal identity? By grasping tightly to my idea of who is ‘me’ and what kind of a character I am and what I can be? Dorothy Hunt’s words lead me to wonder and to do some self-assessing on the topic. It may be time to assess inward as well as to seek outward.

 

Awakening to Joy

“You’re floating in empty space in a universe that goes on forever. If you have to be here, at least be happy and enjoy the experience.”

 ~~ Michael A. Singer, The Untethered Soul

Sometimes a Bad Day is a Good Thing

Reconnecting with Oneness, and Francis Lucille

I was having a bad day.

Houseguests made our morning coffee, creating a weak, half-decaf concoction without telling me, a woman who enjoys a strong cuppa in the a.m. We’d gotten up and dressed by 7:30 to go to breakfast, at their suggestion; then, they said, “Oh, we changed our minds. We’re leaving at 8:30.” An hour’s sleep lost. A friend sent me a photo of me, which she loved, in which I looked ancient, wrinkly and sweaty. The ego took a blow. It was hot and we have no air-conditioning. Stifling. My computer tablet refused to start; my mini-blinds would not lower to shield out the hot sun; in my irritated state, my meditation crawled from shallow to shallower, my mind jumping from one irritation to the next.  The neighbor started up a drilling/pounding house project.

I kept it in perspective – none of this was earth-shattering. “Get over it,” I said to me. But I was off center. I slipped further and further, as the irritations built. I sneezed, itchy eyes of allergies settling in; I gave up on yoga stretches and slipped further. I was at the door of a funk. In fact, I opened the door and was ready to take a step.

In a moment of synchronicity, I flipped on my Google + and  a new video popped up on my one working computer. It was from Francis Lucille’s satsang, and he was answering an online question from someone named Luke, who did not like who he was.  “That is my question,” I said. “I feel this way today, too.  I’m not liking who I am in this world.”

In Francis’ answer to Luke, he said that the one you believe yourself to be is not who you really are. That’s good, I thought, because I don’t want to be this irritable individual with hurt feelings. I sat down to listen and watch. Francis explained:

The one you really are is extraordinary awareness which is hearing these words right now. Nothing else. Stop linking this awareness to this body-mind called Luke [or Judy!]. Be open to the possibility that this awareness is independent from the body-mind that you call Luke. And that the awareness is the real Luke.…

Francis continued to explain that awareness is not a hostage to the body-mind. Or dependent on it.  And further, its freedom, power, peace and happiness derives from this independence.

“That which you want to change is not the real you,” he said.

I paused to listen again: “That which you want to change is not the real you.” But where is this awareness, this consciousness, then, when I want it and when I have slipped into an ego-driven funk? Where was it when I wanted to blame other people for weak coffee, switches in plans, crappy photos and a faulty mini-blind?

Hiding, I decided. Waiting for me to remember. Waiting for me to feel its presence. Waiting for me to get over this everyday body-mind junk focus. Yes, waiting patiently for me to remember. I finally did, thanks to a generous answer to Luke’s question from Francis Lucille.

I remembered and I moved on – not perfectly, but with a leap of intention. My heart eased and my soul let go. And that should be the end of the story. But, I admit to you that, even with all that resolve, I still do live within the powerful magnet of this body-mind.

I deleted the unflattering photo from my email, flipped on a fan, made a fresh batch of hefty coffee and covered my window with a curtain.

Oh, and I slathered on a facial mud masque, just for good measure.

The journey continues.

In Your Final Moments…

Some comments by the great teachers make me pause − and ponder. This is one I came across from a ConsciousTV interview of Francis Lucille by Iain McNay.

The question being asked was, what would you do if you ate a poisonous mushroom and had just 2 hours to live?

Francis Lucille’s answer:

“Wait peacefully.”

How many of us, I wonder, have embraced non-duality so thoroughly, so deeply and so fully that we would not instead be reaching out to loved ones for goodbyes? Or jotting down our final notes on that life’s work Theory of Everything?

Makes me pause.

“Wait peacefully,” he said.

Imagine that!

 

Joy

Joy is prayer; joy is strength: joy is love; joy is a net of love by which you can catch souls.

˜˜Mother Teresa